My Fucking Business

10:50 AM Him: Do you have anything to say?

10:51 AM me: huh?

about what?

Him: Haven't listened to my voicemail yet eh?

10:52 AM I want you to know that I am incredibly hurt.

 me: What?

  hold on

 Him: No dont

  Its mean.

  And I was and am angry.

 me: ouch

  why?

  what did i do?

  I'm a fucking piece of shit?

  What?

  very confused here

 Him: I'm sure you will send this in too.

  But fuck it

 me: Oh, lord.

  Really? You're mad about chat rats?

  It's entirely anon.

10:55 AM Him: Those were personal. Between me and you.

 me: That's the whole idea.

   That's what makes the damn thing worth reading.

   They are in NO WAY even associated with you.

   Why such a big deal?

 Him: they are my fucking words.

 me: Yes, and good ones even

Him: Is nothing sacred to you?

10:57 AM me: Sacred? Really?

  Not words. No.

  Feelings. Yes.

Him: I'm so hurt and mad I'm shaking

me: I'm so sorry.

 Him: Its all gone.

 me: It's all gone?

10:58 AM Him: My trust in you.

 me: sorry

  don't really understand. but i'm sorry

10:59 AM was actually going to ask

  not sure why i didn't

  didn't think you'd mind as long as there were no names

11:01 AM Him: No. I do mind.

    I'm destroyed that you put that out there.

    Only back in my life for more material…?

 me: Oh, please

   That's ridiculous

 Him: Is it?

 me: yes

 Him: Thinking about it last night. After you were in my bed...

11:03 AM me: and?

 Him: Just crushed.

 me: But.. why?

 Him: I've never been so hurt.

 me: But... why?

  WHY? WHY? WHY?

  Why is it such a betrayal? I don't understand.

  I really don't

11:04 AM Him: That's the name of the game isn't it. Said so in the headline

  Well I know how it feels now.

 me: Yes, and supposed to be fun.

  and funny. And real

  not cruel

11:05 AM Him: It isn't. At all.

 me: It's a good "random" chat and totally relatable

Him: My fucking business

 me: no

  not yours

 Him: Not the rest of the world.

 me: mine

  But who cares? No one knows.

  Seriously

 Him: I knew. And that's all that matters.

11:06 AM me: If we would have done it together would you care?

  Would you have said no fucking way?

  Or does it just feel like a betrayal because you didn't know?

11:07 AM You want me to have them take it down?

 Him: No leave it. The damage has been done.

11:09 AM I don't care about others. But shit between you and me. I would have said no.

 me: but why?

 Him: Its only for you.

    I want to be anon in this world.

   Maybe I toook it hard. But please understand

 me: Maybe not.

  I do. But it was not meant to harm.

  Didn't see it as a betrayal, per se.

 Him: That's what it did.

 me: Ugh. Sorry

11:12 AM ... but... it's good

 Him: My trust is so fragile.

 me: So... can I publish this now? :)

  KIDDING

  !!!!!

11:13 AM Him: Ugh.

 me: sorry

 Him: I just don't know anymore.

11:15 AM me: come on

  At least it's real.

  real

  real

11:18 AM Sorry

 Him: I feel a bit better.. but damn.

 me: :(

11:19 AM Really glad I didn't hear your message until you texted

  kiss to you

  right on your face

11:27 AM Him: Watch out for the egg.

    On my face.

 me: no egg on your face

  none

  none

  none

11:28 AM just kisses

  tell me I'm not a fucking piece of shit

  come on

 Him: Your not.

 me: :)

  I'm sorry

11:33 AM damn, always hurting on you

 Him: Seems that way.

  Ill tell you what..

 me: ?

 Him: Dodged a bullet.

11:34 AM me: ?